Monday, January 04, 2010
oh, im feeling so guilty after that happened.
it happened this morning.
i had this urge to bring my laptop to grandma's house so that i could play computer games at the same time as my cousin.
i asked both my parents and they hesitated and said no, i furious and acted like a sulky 5-year old.
oh man... i still think both of them are angry at me even though i apologized on the car ride.
silly outburst, i can't be having some mood swings. but next time, im going to try to act more responsible, and respect my parents even more.
yesterday i lost one of the screws from my specs, so i had to find a replacement from my other old specs. boy oh boy, you should see how many i've got. about 5-7 i guess, mostly broken.
but recently, i've been able to make the pair im wearing last for almost 2 years. an achievement i guess.
do some boys get really emotional too and sensitive too?
sometimes i just feel like staring into the distance, and feel like im just waiting for something or someone.
then there's just this weird feeling that everything's so empty.
maybe that's just my body making my mind loopy, we, humans are so strange in some ways.
holidays are ending, and my sis returned to school today.
somehow, i miss school, both the hard and good times. they bring so much substance and colours to an otherwise monotonous life.
i miss being able to run rounds around the school field with the whole class
i miss talking to my friends
i miss my teachers, i want them to teach me again.
exams i'll definitely not miss, anytime soon.
i miss hearing the school piano playing with some random tune or a piece that someone has learnt and practiced during their piano lessons.
i miss being able to feel the warn radiant sunbeams upon the back of my neck when i walk home from school every school day.
i miss all those smiles
im growing into an adult, yet i feel like becoming a child once more. my sis is so lucky she's able to attend high school.
JC life will surely be different, i guess, after all, a bunch of people at my age couldn't possibly be so childish and act like they used to be in secondary school, can they?
but life is like a box of chocolates, i'll never know what's going to happen tomorrow.
however much i stare into the distance, i can never predict what my future will be...
and im living my life story with every time that has passed.
but i predict that there will be rapid changes to come. there will be.
ok, my future, surprise me!
Call Of The Wild at 1:29 PM