Sunday, September 12, 2010
Feeling kind of depressed today.
Maybe depressed is too strong a word, maybe I'll use a word that best describes what I've been doing the whole day: sigh
as always, this day always comes; the last day of the holiday and the day before a great new term of education starts. I sigh, not because I detest going to JC. No, not really... I just feel that I have so much revision to catch up with.
I don't want to give up trying to absorb knowledge from that thick pile of biology/chemistry/math notes that seem like a tome if I bind them together. But I feel that I'm just dangling a bait on a string into a river of knowledge. There's just so much to memorise, maybe I'll ask for more consultations the next 2 weeks.
there's just 2 weeks left to promos, it might be sufficient to many, I'm not confident it's enough for me.
To add on, my Dad just doesn't play table tennis with me anymore. He just makes excuses that he wants to watch TV or he's got work to do. that, is a big part of my sigh.
I've lost touch with something I really like to do.I used to play table tennis every weekend.
This year, for the past 9 months, I have not even played a game of table tennis.
Sorry, I'm just in a really weird mood. Somehow, motivation is sapped out of me today and I think of such depressing and helpless stuff.
Just deleted spam on the chatbox, i don't like people with an insurance website or a website selling skateboards for their blog to be posting on my cbox and telling me that my blog is special or something. Or people with names such as Sarasexy or VideoGirl to ask me to stay cool. Sucks to be you to be born with such names.
Sigh...my blog isn't special to you, my blog is special to me. I don't need fake comments and spam to be cluttering up cbox space for my friends to post on. So go spam somewhere else, don't pollute my chatbox with fake comments.
My blog is just a pool of water, where I can see my own reflection.
To add on, my Thursday tuition lesson last week was ruined totally because of two arrogant girls behind me. Hearing their conversation made me wish I sat 4 seats ahead of them so that Ms Chee's voice can overlap their's. Plus, Mich wasn't there to chat with me or doodle on my paper, so I sat there listening to both Ms Chee and the dreaded conversation between the two girls for the whole lesson.
whereby Ms Chee's voice was 1000X better than hearing what they said. Just sickening.
The topic of their conversation: Ridiculing a fellow friend of their's who does not know how to solve a math problem and insulting their "fellow" friend as dumb.
It was like feeling an aura of trolling behind me the whole lesson. I didn't even turn around until the end of the lesson to get out of the chair. It's just sad to see them insult a friend because he or she does not know how to solve a math problem. Those two are just not being understanding enough, they should have offered their friend help. And you know what? Both of them looked so ordinary you wouldn't even think they would've spouted stuff like that. Looks are so deceiving.
crap that ruined my day. sigh.
Once again, sorry for the serious mood, if what you've read seems angry in tone or something like that.
maybe I'll just look out my window at the nice sunset
but half my window view is blocked by some shade structure that obstructs half my window.
I had to bend down at such an angle that the shade will not be included in my sky photos.
nice sunset huh.. it always sets behind that skyline of HDB flats. one day, if i have enough time.... I'll take photos of the sky
signing off.
(edit)
felt better. played tt with dad just now.
its been almost 9 months since i went down to the park for a stroll too.
Call Of The Wild at 6:37 PM