Friday, November 26, 2010
Watched Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows (part 1) yesterday.
and I feel like watching it again. I say this because I have never seen the same movie more than once. (Except on TVs of course)
The grim mood was set from the start, I found myself more drawn into the movie. Like an observer, but somehow immersed in it.
Creepy parts and exciting parts both set my hair standing and heart racing. Maybe I should watch it in 3D next time.
Meant to be a class movie outing but somehow only 9 people made it, zzzz. Nevertheless, still had fun.
Yong Kee, you went to India yesterday, so have an awesome trip :D Bring back lotsa lotsa curry or any souvenir you can get hold of! Have a fulfilling trip helping the needy too.
My family was hoping to go Taiwan this year for a trip, but my Mum couldn't apply for leave. Oh well.... maybe next year.
To SH: sorry for late replies. Thank you so much for that beautiful letter! I like the paper too.
I would like to write a letter back too, but my hand writing is horrendous, ok, I think it looks scrawny. I will type this on blog instead K?
Here goes:
"There is no such thing as 'too late' in life." - Mitch Albom
Don't be disappointed if I were to forget sometimes, you know I'm a bit muddleheaded sometimes. But I'll still remember eventually :) Being the best of friends means that such days are important to me. You don't need to thank me for friendship silly, its a gift, given free and shared among others. A joy shared is a joy made double!
Its touching that to know you still remembered the water chestnut cupcakes O.o and the cardboard pig ...haha. I know you crave more cupcakes.... XD kidding kidding... eat too much and you'll turn into piggy too.
We are in different JCs, so hope you have adapted well! I still need more time with mine though, haha. It's also good that you've made many friends, fun ones too in fact( I can see from your Facebook pics)! Do introduce them to me next time :)
You seem really busy these days though, could hardly meet up with you to give you your present. Same could be said for me. Btw, how's the book? Good read?
Although we are in different JCs, you know I'll be there to give you support right? :) Just do your best. Anytime you need to chat, feel free to call or message, or write a letter!
It's never too late to do so.
Hope you have a fruitful holiday, work hard next year and hope we see each other in the same school again. Promise?
signing off.
Call Of The Wild at 9:46 PM
Monday, November 22, 2010
I finally gave SH her present :)
EVil stare at her....(you delayed for so long, i was starting to think you didn't want it)
well, the part where Mel said I carried it in my bag may not be true.
But I hope you'll enjoy reading that book, in time to come, do lend it to me :D I want to read it too!
Hmm... as for ZW's present... where can I find a fresh organic cabbage for him... Cold Storage?
ahaha.
Well, today is HIHS prom night. I attended it last year and is now a wonderfully happy memory. Hope the juniors have fun. My next prom will be next year, but after the A level though ...
work hard, play hard... true...true, but if I might add: 30% play and 60% work, the other 10% is stress, or boredom, or relationships, or craptastic stuff, or WTF facts you discover in life, or good luck, or insanity, or hunger, or childishness, or redundant stuff, or SMSes... or random stuff like the above ....etc
all in that 10%.
random much.
tomorrow's lesson is just 1hour long. and im going home after that.
signing off.
Call Of The Wild at 11:56 PM
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Today, we carried an old drawer out of our house, placing it at the place where old furniture is to be taken away to be dumped or recycled.
This drawer is beige-brownish in colour, turning a little yellow. With a door with a spoilt hinge which makes its right door jar out a little.
This drawer, is older than me; being made from a tree that once existed before I was born.
This drawer is a piece of furniture that was bought before my parents brought me into this world.
It's not my drawer. It's been in my sister's room ever since we moved here. This drawer is a drawer that the maid uses to keep her clothes and stuff.
So why am I so attached to it?
Humans have a strange attachment to the things that are familiar to them.
I am attached to it... perhaps because it was part of the memories of my childhood.
Back when i was a baby. Baby powder, lotion, my rattle toy and such were stored in it. Heck, even my pacifier was stored there. It was the drawer on the right side of my crib.
Even though I was probably too young to notice it, I eventually grew to recognise my surroundings.
I often tried to reach stuff that were on the drawer, being small then, of course i couldn't reach high enough. I might have even wondered what was on top of the drawer, further fueling the drive for curiosity then.
I grew to become a toddler. I grew to like the woody smell of the drawer. Being able to open the lower drawer doors, I was always greeted by the sweet, pungent comforting smell of baby powder and lotion.
The taller I grew, the easier it was for me to climb onto the top of the drawer.
eventually, i was able to lift myself and sit on top (with much effort). I believed I was at the top of the world (or at least the room).
Then i got older, other thoughts kept me pre-occupied and I forgot about the drawer. I just regarded it as "another piece of furniture" for years...
Until today that is...
I opened the empty drawer, there still lingers the phantom woody, sweet and pungent smell.
We left it at the void deck, near the dumping area. It's still there, it will be gone a few hours or days later.
The space once occupied by the old drawer in our home stands a new cherry coloured wooden drawer.
signing off.
Call Of The Wild at 8:48 PM
Thursday, November 11, 2010
My Q&A question refuses to leave my mind.
Somehow it etched itself onto my brain, I'm unable to forget it.
I keep worrying that I have not answered it correctly, or failed to answer it wholesomely.
But OP is already over I told myself. What's the use of worrying?
"But...But... ", my mind stutters, I don't know, I just don't know...
"Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live" -Mitch Albom
this phrase strikes a chord within me. (i have reread a book just recently)
Life is filled with worries.
But what if life is ending, where do the worries go?
Would we worry even more if we are dying; to worry about loved ones, about their futures and such.
Or do we let go of everything?
I've always wondered what goes on in the mind of a dying human. What do they feel?
I once saw my paternal grandma on the hospital bed, a few weeks before she succumbed to cancer. She looked frail, weak, skinny, wrinkled. Tubes were inserted into her wrists. That time, I was sensible enough to know what cancer does. But I knew i was shocked when I saw her in that plight.
However, ahma did not cry, she never got sad. That day, she just held onto my hands and told me that she loves me. Her grip was soft, gentle even. Her eyes just gazed at me. I wondered if she was worried about her condition and such...
that night, i prayed to the goddess of mercy for ahma to be better once more. I was worried about her. even though i'm an atheist, i just prayed.
I visited her several more times after that, each time I just hoped she was better, or my presence will make her happier.
on that final visit, she told me: " ahma's time is near"
i was sad, but i did not cry, it took effort.
I wondered if she was worried about us, her family.
but she, was as though, had left everything behind when she said that.
no worries, no nothing. how? What if? If this? no nothing.
maybe she knew that we would survive without her in our lives somehow, maybe she knew we will eventually bury that sadness and carry on.
definition of worry:
Worrying is a lasting preoccupation with past or future bad events. It is a type of thinking that makes you feel as if you were reliving a past event or living out a future one, and you cannot stop those thoughts from occurring. Such thoughts are often characterized by the phrases "If only..." and "What if..."
do dying people eventually rid themselves of all worries in life? Maybe they think that there is no point in doing so. Maybe they have become enlightened.
I still remember my ahma, in my heart.
I still don't feel how the dying feels. Even if you put it in words.
I ask my mind.
But.. but... my mind stutters,
I don't know, I just don't know...
Maybe it will someday.
signing off.
Call Of The Wild at 9:42 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Class outing today was dinner at Aston's at The Cathay.
Well, if you consider 6 people a class that is... makes me feel that our class has no spirit.
Grilled chicken was kinda chewy but I liked the salad and fries :D
Veron Cow doesn't want to trade her beef steak or anything else for my salad. Look at the tangy juicy crunchy salad she is missing out on man...You should not eat your own kind!
anyways, the 6 of us had fun... a laughingly fun time.
after dinner, went to Plaza Sing and bought yogurt & bubble tea, roamed Carrefour, played with all kinds of stuff, including the fans on display... sat on chairs... pretended we were at the beach and the sea breeze was blowing at us, but was actually the fans. Or pretended that it was Veron's home lol =.=
then we stared at baby swimsuits, played with children's toys, whacked toy kittens, poked toy babies and laughed like maniacs.
I've also bought a gift. not at Carrefour of course :)
Did I mention that I got lost at Bugis just trying to find the store?!
signing off.
Call Of The Wild at 9:09 PM
Saturday, November 06, 2010
I stood alone.
Looking out my window now.
The sky is a murky orange, with swirls of vanilla
the brick red HDB flats seem dark brown in the darkness
puddles of water collect on the pathways of the park surrounded by the buildings
a thousand drops crashing into them, ripples in frenzy
as i watched, i reached my arms through the window grille, feeling the cold still air
a tiny zephyr passes by, i felt hair on the back of my palm bristle
i placed my forehead against the grille, skin turning numb from coldness
streetlights, they look like tiny illuminating balls hovering in the still air.
bursts of laughter could be heard from the nearby apartments, probably people celebrating Deepavali.
The sound of the droplets are getting lighter, softer and gentler. It's nothing more than a drizzle now.
The illuminating balls make the ground shimmer as though they were polished.
As i moved away from the window, the grille gives a metallic creak.
My head hurts. I laid on my bed, hoping that I may hop onto a dreamboat and drift off.
But I just laid there, I stared at the murky orange sky again, I realised that it had turned milky orange, I stared at the ceiling.
all this while, thoughts in a whirlwind, clashing, bombarding each other. Eye of the hurricane this is not.
This storm could last the whole night.
signing off.
Call Of The Wild at 11:41 PM
Friday, November 05, 2010
I'm muscle achin' all over.
still achin' from Wednesday's training.
Night cycling plans are still underway, I can't really focus on them till OP is over and by the way; is next Monday (>.<)
When OP is over, I going to watch a movie. No, I must watch one. You know what? I'm so in the Harry Potter mood right now. I think class president planning something of a class movie outing, must watch Harry Potter! I wonder why it's just The Deathly Hallows part 1... zzz.
Part 1??! i was hoping they would release the whole thing-.- omg...
Maybe they wanted to earn more movie ticket sales that's all.
On the plus side, the Deathly Hallows should have a longer movie time :DD. It's spread out on 2 movies?
So excited now.. eeeeeheehee
then I suddenly think of PW... then I feel nervous. Well, success is dependent on effort, I am going to rehearse repeatedly tomorrow to get the gist of my part. Wonder how the rest of you are doing now..
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories
'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight
signing off.
Call Of The Wild at 11:07 AM